lonnnnnng week!

dustin is on 2nd shift for a whole month!!! so we're only going to see eachother on the weekends. but i'm glad that he gets to spend time with brenna in the mornings before he goes to work. it really doesn't feel different since he's been on 2nd shift b/c we talk to eachother all day long and when i get home from work i'm taking care of brenna until she goes to bed, so really it doesnt feel any different. if i were a stay at home mom, then it would probably be hard. so the both of us definitley look forward to the wkends; even if we have to just sit around the house, that's ok b/c we like to spend time w/ our family. but of course, i do get cabin fever!!!

but anyways, back to my lonnnnng week! i'm super busy and it's only going to get busier in december b/c it's year end and i have to budget, reconcile, create reports for everyone and their momma's and i choose NOT to work any overtime b/c i work overtime at home anyways!!!
i did get a 10% raise though which i was surprised b/c of our economic crisis but oh well i'll take it!!! on another note, i was promised a promotion once our contract expires with our third party. it sounds great and all but what if i have another baby??? i can't work full time with 2 kids!! i can't do that to my mom and dustin's mom, it wouldn't be fair & plus i wouldn't be able to be away from them that long working full time.

so i don't know what to do. should i go ahead and tell my boss not to promote me b/c i might have to go back part time? it's such a stressful decision. i mean yeah the $$$ would be great but it's not worth it to me right now. i have to focus on what's right for our family and then i can worry about making more $$ down the road.

dustin doesn't like me working full time and he wasn't happy about me going back FT but he's definitely not complaining now b/c i've been bringing home the bacon. but i know it's all going to change when my hours get cut back again........one day.........

ITS ALL IN GOD'S HANDS..............